March 21-April 2
I’ve always considered myself a homebody but, if I’m being honest, I miss going outside. I miss my family; I miss strolling through the aisles at Sephora and Ulta, swatching makeup at my own leisure; I miss going to the grocery store and being blissfully unaware of the fact that everything I touch is apparently crawling with bacteria, germs and God knows what else.
There are good days and bad days, but the past week has felt like much more of a struggle for me. I live alone (well, just me and Kramer) and I am bored and lonely and going slightly stir crazy. My sleep schedule is incredibly messed up and, despite the fact that my therapist told me to maintain a schedule for the sake of my mental health, I never fall asleep before 4 a.m. I haven’t felt very creative or productive, no matter how hard I try. It hasn’t been all bad, though.
Here’s how I’ve been coping:
I have been watching an ungodly amount of TV. Because I’m feeling so emotionally volatile, rewatching some episodes of Friends was making me incredibly sad, so I decided to start something else. I watched Tiger King. To be entirely honest, I was so hauntingly intrigued by it that I watched it in one sitting. It’s like a car accident—you just can’t look away.
I also watched season one and two of Big Little Lies which was amazing. I highly recommend if you like suspenseful shows—but you should be forewarned that there are some very graphic depictions of domestic abuse so if that is upsetting or triggering to you, maybe this isn’t a show for you.
I also watched all five seasons of Schitt’s Creek on Netflix and later realized that there is another season that’s airing right now. It took me a while to get into it, but after a few episodes, I started falling in love with the show, especially David Rose. He’s my favorite.
I’ve obviously continued to watch random episodes of Friends and The Office, primarily when I’m lying in bed and can’t fall asleep (which is every night, let’s be real).
I started to re-read Matt Bellasi’s book “Everything is Awful” because it felt very apropos. I love Matt’s voice and it genuinely makes me laugh out loud when I read it. Laughing at his failures and humiliating moments make mine seem less salient, LOL.
I had been reading the book “The Top Five Regrets of the Dying” by Bronnie Ware, but I had to stop because it’s a little too heavy for the current moment.
I’ve made a very concerted effort to limit the amount of news that I consume. I’m trying to stay informed as best I can, without going overboard and freaking myself out. I’m staying home and doing my part to flatten the curve, everything else is out of my control.
I’ve been trying to channel my energy into creative pursuits by doing work for my freelance clients, brainstorming blog post ideas and practicing illustrations on my iPad. Some days I’ll have a random burst of energy and other days, I end up just staring at my computer. It is what it is!
The only good thing to come from this quarantine is the fact that I’ve been doing a lot of cleaning. On Sunday I deep cleaned my kitchen, leaving it cleaner than it has ever been before. I swept and scrubbed the floors, the baseboards, and the appliances. I also took everything out of my fridge and scrubbed all the shelves and drawers, threw out food that was expired or bad and then re-organized everything. Not only did it take up a solid portion of my day, but I felt a lot better when I was done.
Despite the fact that I haven’t left my house in weeks, my hamper is still full of dirty clothes & towels, which shows me that my failure to keep up with my laundry is less about me being busy and more just a character trait. I’m learning so much about myself!
I’ve also been journaling because that helps me process things and putting pen to paper always makes me feel better. It will also be interesting to go back and re-read some of these journal entries when this is all over. In addition to journaling, I’m doing a 10-day writing prompt, that I’ve trying to decide whether or not I want to share as a blog series.
One of my favorite things I’ve been doing this quarantine is playing Tetris, which is nerdy but I don’t care. If everyone else can play Animal Crossing, I can play Tetris. I used to play Tetris online all the time when I was in high school. My late friend Pat Spitler and I would play it during our journalism class and we would talk so much shit to each other. I would like to record to show that I always won.
I try to stay in touch with my friends and family as much as possible. I talk to my mom and Max every day, either talking on the phone or Facetime. Max also sends me the most ridiculous Snapchats, which typically are the highlight of my day.
My friends Andrea and Jennifer check in on me almost every day, which is the sweetest thing ever and melts my heart. I call my grandma at least once a week to make sure that she and my grandpa are doing okay and have everything they need.
One of my favorite things is getting random memes throughout the day from my friends, which lately have either been about Tiger King or Corona, but either way, they make me laugh which also boosts my mood.
I’m hanging in there. The interesting part of this to me is that we’re all collectively experiencing the same thing. We’re all scared, lonely and grieving the lives we used to have. It will get better. It will take some time, but it will. How are you passing the time?